What You See Is What You Get!

On Sunday I watched one of my favorite movies, Field of Dreams. I truly enjoy anything James Earl Jones does and along with that this movie has some very good scenes in it. This movie also makes me very emotional. At the end the character played by Keven Costner meets the spirit of his father and plays catch with him and this resolves many of the problems that he had with his father. Like most father's I have the feeling that I could have done a better job interacting with my son's over the years and been a better father and provicer. I also wish that I had been a better son to my father. It all gets very confusing. I believe that I did as good a job at the time as I could with Brad and Todd. I wish I could go back and relive the good parts and make the bad parts better. But, in life you usually don't get that chance so I will be satisfied with trying to be the best dad I can be now and in the future. As far as my father goes I learn more about him as I continue my life as a father. You see my dad has been gone for 26 years I can't ever fix that issue. Well so much for Field of Dreams

Well last night was the night that I M.C.'d the Trivia night at Church. This is one of those nights each year that I truly enjoy. I look forward to it each year. I am blessed that the committee continues to ask me to do it. Now, I understand that there are two reasons that they might have to continue to ask me. 1. No one else wants to do it 2. I actually do a reasonably good job of it. I choose to believe number 2. To most people it is not such a big deal to be the M.C. and in reality I am just one cog in a big wheel but it does make me feel special. I enjoy reading the questions and running the contests but the really big deal is that it helps to raise more money for the local Lutheran High School Association than any other event we can think of. So it was a big night for the group and for me and God has richly blessed me allowing me to do it.

Last night Cheryl and I did one of our favorite things we went to dinner with Todd and Sarah. Todd's birthday is coming up soon (the 20th.) and since they are going to be out of town we went out a little early. We ate at a restaurant that Cheryl and I had never been to and it was great. As a parent it is an interesting transition to go from your children being little to them growing up and being on their own. At first this is a little disconcerting but than you realize how much fun it is to be sitting across from two adults and talking about adult things rather than across from children and cutting up their food for them. We love to be with Brad, Todd, and Sarah it really is what a parants ultimate dream is.

Today seemed like just another day and in most ways it was. I have been trying to start each day by asking God to show me what he wants to do that day to do his will. This really in my mind is just giving myself over to God's will ( a very hard thing for me to do most times) When I give myself over to him in the morning my day seems to go smoother, not any easier but smoother. Well today I didn't say my prayer and I ended up all day fighting what was happening and everything just seemed harder. The simple act of putting yourself in God's hands each day really allows you to just kind of go along for the ride( wow does that make life less stressful). So I will try to stop trying to control things and just put myself in God's hands. Because, control is really just an illusion

I was a meeting last night. The meeting was about one of my favorite things to do. I have had the privilage to M.C. a trivia night each year for the last 8 years. The meeting was to finalize the questions. The trivia night benefits the local Lutheran High School theat both my sons graduated from as well as my wife and I. I know that is my ego talking but I love to stand in front of 400 people with a mike in my hand and control the flow of the night for about 3 hours. I have read many times that one of the top five greatess stressers is speaking in front of people but although I have a few butterflys I totally enjoy it. Cheryl and I helped start this night and even though there are new people in charge they keep asking me back I am truly blessed. Well the night is feb. 18 wish us luck.

Today is one of these days that I wish I was younger. I am a delivery driver but with the company I work for this means doing other things around the store when there are no deliveries. Well we are stocking up for spring(our busiest season) and we are recieving trucks daily with mass quanities of spring goods. This means that the other driver and I have to lift and put away mass quanities of seasonal goods. I don't really wish that I was younger I just wish my body was. It is Fri. night and I am looking forward to the weekend. And I am learning every day that I cherish every day I am still here and am able to be with the people I love. Well so much for today.

Well today is another day of driving down the road and picking up and delivering building materials. You see that is what I do for a living. I work for a local hardware store. What a great day it ended up bing about 60degrees out and for the 1st. of Feb. that's not bad. This is the kind of day I took this job for. I spent 30 years as a salesman and about 3 years ago I hung up my suit and put on jeans. For the most part I enjoy myself everyday(much less stress). There are the usual cast of character at my work as there are at all workplaces. But than again most people do not work with a clown, well I do(more about him later). A friend of my wife's and myself just found out she has cancer so we are asking for prayers for her. I talked about my family in my first blog so I am going to try and add a picture of them here. How about that it worked.